10-05-2005, 01:46 PM
You are doing fine. The pressure will wear you down and refine you. You will either find that you, like a piece of coal compressed in to a diamond, are made of finer stuff or you will crack. I strongly suspect that you will find strength that you didn't know you had. That is what this process is. A lot of people can't cut the mustard. You can, and you will.
Sounds like you have it pretty good. To compare, at about this stage in my life, I was living in a van, working more than one job, losing my marbles. You have an apartment, somebody that you love, kitties, and all kinds of creature comforts.
It is GOOD that you hate your job. Develop a strong undisguised loathing for it. Hate it with every fibre in your being. What you hate is mediocrity. If you do not follow through with your education, that is what you have to look forward to for the rest of your life. You obviously want something better, SO GO OUT AND TAKE IT FOR YOUR SELF.
You know what? It will probably get worse. A lot worse. Expect it. Be prepared for it. And know in your mind that good things are only achieved through pain, suffering, and sacrifice, and anything worth having is worth suffering for. Adversity is a refinement process that makes us better human beings. With out discomfort, with out pain, with out that unpleasant feeling that life often brings, we would never be motivated to get off of our butts and do something better.
Don't get distracted by all those snares along the way, and do not be discouraged.
I'm rooting for you.
Sounds like you have it pretty good. To compare, at about this stage in my life, I was living in a van, working more than one job, losing my marbles. You have an apartment, somebody that you love, kitties, and all kinds of creature comforts.
It is GOOD that you hate your job. Develop a strong undisguised loathing for it. Hate it with every fibre in your being. What you hate is mediocrity. If you do not follow through with your education, that is what you have to look forward to for the rest of your life. You obviously want something better, SO GO OUT AND TAKE IT FOR YOUR SELF.
You know what? It will probably get worse. A lot worse. Expect it. Be prepared for it. And know in your mind that good things are only achieved through pain, suffering, and sacrifice, and anything worth having is worth suffering for. Adversity is a refinement process that makes us better human beings. With out discomfort, with out pain, with out that unpleasant feeling that life often brings, we would never be motivated to get off of our butts and do something better.
Don't get distracted by all those snares along the way, and do not be discouraged.
I'm rooting for you.
All alone, or in twos,
The ones who really love you
Walk up and down outside the wall.
Some hand in hand
And some gathered together in bands.
The bleeding hearts and artists
Make their stand.
And when they've given you their all
Some stagger and fall, after all it's not easy
Banging your heart against some mad buggers wall.
"Isn't this where...."
The ones who really love you
Walk up and down outside the wall.
Some hand in hand
And some gathered together in bands.
The bleeding hearts and artists
Make their stand.
And when they've given you their all
Some stagger and fall, after all it's not easy
Banging your heart against some mad buggers wall.
"Isn't this where...."