Think you had a bad day at work?

[Kevin]

The things I really fear are loss of vision and loss of my mind. And of the two, loss of my mind is the big one. I'd much sooner die, even of some of the diseases you named, than live with dementia. Of course, if I do go crazy, I might just change my mind;)

--Pete

I can not agree with you more on this. And depending on how you lose your mind, it makes it even worse. The issues I went through there were times I felt very much like I was not in control of myself. The panic attacks were so severe, I had episodes of blackout, there were times where I literally couldn't make myself move my limbs even though I wanted to. I still have days were I can not make myself get in the shower (that's the last lingering effect thankfully). Not being able to control your own actions is horrible. It's the biggest fear I have now, reverting even a little to how things were before. I could not handle it again.

I realize that many folks don't know the full extent of what I went though, hell no one knows. I'm the only one that was there for every issue that happened, but yeah, if I lose my mind, I want it lost completely. Anything else is the worst experience I can imagine now.