Dark Clouds Gather

[Kevin]

I couldn't even finish your post because of this one line. Quite frankly, it makes me rather sick to my stomach just to read.

I read your post about your personal problems. I silently congratulated you on your "coming out" (I hope it was a positive experience), and threw my own silent condolences and support into the mix, but crap like this coming from your mouth about how you drag everyone down just pisses me off. And I'm not pissed off at you: I'm pissed off at whatever or whoever got such a stupid idea in your head.

I can't speak for everyone, but I will say for damn sure that you are not a burden upon me, nor should you be seen as a burden upon anyone. If someone feels so strongly about you, that you are holding them back and dragging down their fun, then quite frankly I hope they quit. They have NO right to treat you in such a way, regardless of whatever conditions you have going on in your life. NO ONE should be seen as a burden upon someone else. You aren't tied into anyone. You're not married to the players or the guild. Everyone who is here is here of their own free will. They can do what they want (within reason, of course), and certainly don't need you to justify their existence. And if they feel that way... Well, I already said it: quit. Period. There's no place for such cold and shallow people in such a generally warm, friendly environment.

I'm not attacking anyone in particular. My guess is that it's just that little voice in the back of your head gnawing at you GG (we all have one). But for whatever reasons your feeling the way you do, I simply couldn't stand aside and listen to you berate yourself any longer. Be it in your mind or because of someone in the guild, it's utter BS through and through, no matter what way you slice it, and I want you to know that. You're a great person, a great player, and a great asset to the community, and you can bet on your life that whenever I think about getting to 60 to play with "the big kid group", your name is one of the first that flashes into my head that I want to play with. That was the case before you explained your life (to which I was not privvy before because I am nowhere near high-enough, nor on enough to stay current on guild events), and it's been the case ever since. If with no one else, don't ever think I see you as a burden. Ever. Because I do not, and will not, and that is because I refuse to let my fun revolve around any one person in this game, and because no one deserves to be treated so low.

Sorry for the rant, but I had to say SOMETHING. Now I'll go finish reading your post. :P

Edit:
Ok, so being a bit of a jerk is worth apologing for. That's a given. But I still stand by my statements, even if they were said in haste. :P
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Heh, I was responding to this before I saw your edit. But the problem with lurkers is also the strength of lurkers. We try to foster a lot of play styles and we all, since we are human, want to have other play the way we want to play. I do my best to play the way others do when I'm in the right mood as do many others, but at times you just can't. But yeah, you seem to have figured out what I was saying after my openind statement so I was clear enough. :)

Thanks for your support and as I think Treesh pointed out, I am married to one of the people and I've known tal for years before this game, heck he housed me for about two weeks one summer while Treesh and I were homeless and I was wandering the country looking for a job. :) So I have some very strong connections to some of the lurkers. I've grown very fond of others through the forums and the game. Sabra, Ruvanal and NSD were all people met through these forums and that game who have all helped me in various ways, even if they don't know it at times, with the personal problems I'm suffering in life. So yeah, like I said, I at times do take the game way too personally and seriously. That can happen when it and some stupid internet forum are the only place that you can communicate without freaking out. Speaking of I'll probably need to make a post about that soon as I may be cutting back my play time a fair bit as part of treatment but that is for another thread.